رهرو ان نیست که گهی تند و گهی اهسته رود رهرو ان است که اهسته و پیوسته رود
it mean a hiker isn't who that walks fast some times and then walks super slow some time... a hiker is one who walks steady.... and i can see the point.. i see my weak point... i have to fix myself and teach myself to be a steady hiker...
yesterday i went to Chebot center... i didn't felt like going there but i forced myself and i am glad that i did ... i was feeling wonderful..specially when i was alone with the telescopes..i met an other volunteer in there who biked around the country after he was layed off from his job! isn't that a courage??? if it was me i could have gone to an other layer of depression! so i though to myself that i will do that some day.... and my aim for it will be " freedom in religion"!!! then i though again... STOP! this is BAD,.. i mean i feel the joy by imagination and in some point the joy is quite real that i feel i have done it so i don't want to do it any more!!! isn't that weird!!!... so i jump to an other thing .... this needs to get fixed...
OK OK.. enough.. so my resolution for now is to be
- steady
- think about reality
- have fun with my studying!
- be involved with Chabot
- finish all the works related to each week by end of that week
